My feelings are very mixed. Fear of having to go under the knife again and the anxiousness of meeting my little boy that has been in my womb for the past 39weeks...Wanted to put Jade with my mum for the night but she refused to leave us. So we had to bring her home and quietly carry her to my mum's home early in the morning at 0530hrs.
At night,Hubby and I cannot sleep although very tired and hubby is so excited...keep going on and on about the soon to be arrival of his baby son, even when he is at work today.
03 May 2008
Woke up early at 0445hrs to wash up, esp. my hair! cannot bath and wash hair for the next few weeks to 1mth... took my own sweet time to wash up and clean myself thoroughly and go round the house to see what are the other things I have to settle before I go to KKH...
Quietly picked Jade and left the house at 0530hrs. By the time we reached my mum's house, she sort of woke up and again cried and made a big fuss over leaving us...my heart aches when i hear her cry and scream, but no choice, we have to let her be for now.
We reached KKH at 0550hrs and went to settle the concessionary carpass 1st, then went straight up to Ward 81, on the 8th floor to report. All is quiet. Was ushered to my bed, sat there with hubby and hugged for awhile... a nurse then came to give me my operating gown and shaved me. Another came with documents for me to sign and brief me on the facilities.
0645hrs. Was told Dr Tham was asking for me already...so had to go down with hubby and nurse. I made it very clear this time and reminded the various nurses and assistants again and again that Hubby is allowed to go into OT and has signed the form. PLEASE LET HIM IN~~~
Hubby was made to wait outside while they prepared me. Met Dr Tham before walking into the operating area and he is still as reassuring...He put in the IV drip for me personally and drove the plug very far into my veins! OUCH!!! 2inches or more in length...I was made to lie down and after IV drip was in place, i was pushed to the OT itself.
This time, epidural was administered differently. I was made to sit and bend, instead of lying and curling on the operating table for the 1st Caesarean. The assistant that was standing in front of me to hold me still was a plump and jolly indian lady. I was shivering so badly from the cold and fright that she kept reassuring me too...I felt so lousy coz I couldn't stop shaking! too scared...
I felt a few needles going into my back, unlike the 1st time when I think I felt only 1needle, which is the one administered to numb the area only... I was getting more and more afraid of the pain! duno is the anaesthetist's skill or what...I had a male for my 1st Caesarean and this time, the anaesthetist was a young lady who seemed below 30...wow...
I could still feel my legs when i was made to lie down and even 5mins later, my legs were not totally numb yet...hubby still wasn't asked to come in! I asked for him again. I had the GREEN drape put in front of me again...argh...the look of operating theatres...Another assistant or doctor introduced himself to me but I couldn't make out who exactly he said he was...and kept asking me to feel for the ice blocks, if i felt the same coldness on the face as with the chest area. I could still feel it! I told him 'please don't start yet...'
All these while, I could feel my legs and body being touched, pressure being applied...why isn't it totally numb???I thought I wasn't supposed to feel anything except the pressure when the gynae is pushing baby out...??
Just then, hubby came in and sat beside me. I almost couldn't recognize him coz of the gown that he wore...
I was almost tearing when i saw him...lying down there, 1hand with the IV drip, the other on the blood pressure cuff, I felt so helpless not being able to move my hands...I asked the assistant again - Has the operation started? the answer was YES...But no one told me!!!OMG 
Hubby was constantly reassuring me that he is there and everything is fine. I kept complaining of the pain I had on my IV plug site...v red and my veins were protruding from the thickness of the tube. Was given some medication twice there to ease the pain...
0736am. Baby is out! V loud crying and Dr Tham said ' Your handsome little prince is out! Congrats Lydia!' Hubby leaned forward and gave me a quick peck on my forehead and said 'Lao puo, I love you.' He was soon asked to go out with baby, leaving me to be stitched up. I felt relieve...but still wondering how my little boy looked like, coz they still din show me.
What seemed like ages to me was actually just a mere 5mins...Jude was brought back to the operating theatre for me to see, and the midwife or nurse showed me his privates too. Hubby didn't come in after that...was still being stitched up and I heard Dr Tham talking about the difficulty of stitching...?? Sounds weird though, and the other assistant was laughing...
Stitching done and almost done in the OT, the drape was removed and was moved to the side to be cleaned coz my blood flowed all the way to my shoulder blades...
looked like alot of blood... the nurses cleaned up my wound area and body again.then covered me and shifted me to the other trolley bed to be whisked off to the recovery room.Over at the recovery room, there wasn't anyone around. Reason being, today is a Saturday, so no operations except for emergency cases. Lie down there for nearly 45mins and progress was going well, so was allowed to be back to the ward. Was pushed out to the waiting area and hubby was there waiting for me. He held my hand while I was pushed up the ward. Was surprised that I still didn't feel any pain and still abit numb at the legs...
Back in the ward, hubby told me he was glad he made it into the OT, if not, he wouldn't have known that all mothers are ALL so GREAT! I was sure glad to hear that...hope he will be an even better husband and father to the 2kids I have given him...
04 May 2008
Dr Tham paid me a visit in semi casual wear...polo tee and pants. He still seemed reassuring and asked about the pain. I told him still not much pain compared to the last Caesarean and he was smiling...I wanted to know why the difference in pain this time round and he said briefly that itz v 'technical', meaning itz probably the cutting and stitching skills...
ok...so he is GOOD! 
I really have nothing to say... he also asked me when I wana go home since my progress has been fairly good. His ladies don't usually need to stay the whole 4D3N... and sure enough, I was allowed to be discharged on 05 May 2008.Overall, pain wasn't so bad and v bearable...though I was v afraid i'd feel it once I start to walk, but no leh...not so bad afterall... Dr Tham
Little Jude!!!
